Back to School I go

I am starting back at school today. I graduate this year. I am in nursing school. I started nursing school a month after my stroke. Crazy diffidently describes my actions in this. At that point, I had already pushed school back once (I was pregnant) and the month after my stroke I was on a "high". It was all still sinking in and I just wanted to go back to "normal".  I am glad I went back to school when I did. If I can recover from a stroke DURING nursing school then I know I can handle the job, well to a degree.

I get so tired. I know part of that is my heart healing and trying to gain strength and part of it is me doing way too much. I go to school during the day and each day varies. Some days I have to be at the hospital at 6:45am and stay til 3pm.  Other days I sit in a classroom from 9am to 12:30 or as late as 3pm. Then most days I go to work at 5pm until 9, 10, 11pm. Saturdays I work and Sundays I study or I try to. By Sunday I am so tired I end up falling asleep studying. This does not work well for my grades.

Other students tell me they stay up until 1, 2, 3am studying for tests. I get dizzy just thinking about staying up that late. To me a late night is 11pm and only because I am working. There are days I think I am crazy for even trying to finish. Other days, I wonder why I didn't do this sooner. Here starts/continues another class. It ends in February so not much longer. Then I take Leardership and I graduate in May. This summer I have to  retake one class. Then I am a professional.

Today is one of those days......what on earth am I doing in school for nursing? I have no idea what I am doing!